November busy period

Its gonna be a busy month for me.. Flying most of the time. Back from BKK, the flooding did not affect the international airport. I crap with the ground staff there super nice people.. I wanna pick up Thai language and brush up my japanese, if thats possible. Most of the time i will be speaking English, at times when i need to speak chinese i feel so lost to finding the right words.

My face is recovering. Hate that everytime i talk to people i only can face them on the right side, soon i gonna face than the Right Way.

Can i have someone i can depend on, giving me a reason to come home everyday smiling? I hate envy.. The feeling of emptiness is taking over me. I want to be equally important in someones life as much as he loves me. Nvm, Stop Dreaming.. He hurt me real Bad, wish he could have treasure me. He didnt know that he means alot to me than anything else other than my job.

I have change the Good and the Bad, only my close friends notice. Not even him.

Time for Bed..

Busy Weeks.

Opps, i nearly forgotten about my blog existence as i was too busy with work. Half the time i am around asia continents. The past 2 was the most busy. After flight tounchdown, i rush straight to sentosa to keet buddy. THANK YOU, buddy MC she brought me spookteculous. Sorry no photos of the ghost as we are not allowed to snap photos.. Scary, so guys if you are excited and dare to try book your tickets with Sentosa. 6Spookeee attraction.. Ended the ghost trail about 10pm,than we decided to head down St James beer garden to have our dinner.Enjoyable Fishball noodles as MC bf tell me alot about aviation which make this crew know know more about aircraft.

Saturday, was Fun. Enjoyable flight to Taipei and rush down to Alicia wedding after. Joined my crazy ex-colleague drinking. So, It was a DRUNK AFFAIR. Love the gathering always so crazy but fun. Alright, its my Sunday today so i shall go plan and see what shall i do later.

With him, still same. Even thought his my Ear for work issue but also my sorrow everytime we argue. Seriously, am i too dependant on him?? Is Envy the only word to use for me. Well, shall not talk about it. As its always my weaker point.

Enjoy your Weekend people..

Monday is not Blue

Sorry, for not abling to update on time or blog everyday. Been busying flying and sleeping. Lucky me, i enjoy flight with good crew and my batchmate accompanying me. Spend Saturday sleeping and playing with my little cousin, Sunday having Wild Honey with him and shopping in town.

And my monday, Not so good rush back home to get ready for treatment but i was damn late. Had a huge arguement with grandma before ileft the house. Arghhhhh, Second isolaz better be good. I expecting a faweless skin after all the money paid off..

Wednesday No Ladies Night

Finally, its my First Solo tomorrow. Nervous as story keep circling around me. Thanks to I,A,S esp R keep telling me what to what do not and Him for encouragement. So Happy i got back my blackberry, and cause my old phone was badly damage they have no choice but to give me a new set. I start to love my BB more, i found out that i was able to retrieve some of my Apps but not the paid ones (Money face), and some apps data also able to retrieve which is afterall a relieve to me. However, the only sad part and worse part is I lost all my contacts. So, people start lauging at me. In fact i learnt my lesson of not backup so i do it the old school way i write down in my notebook. Today, happen to be 九王爷so went out to watch the parade. Sis and mum keep discussing and told grandma that during the entire time the guys at the parade keep walking up to me just to offer me sweets and they even cut in the other person just to do so and so i ended up with many sweets. Blessing from 九王爷.

CHECKLIST.
BATH - Done
PACK LUGGAGE - Done
UNIFORM IRON - Done


ALRIGHT, i gotta sleep 11.30am flight tomorrow. Sometimes, i wish he really just surprise me but i guess 希望越大,失望就越大。

Expecting Surprise

Sometimes, i wish your more than just my ex. But someone i really need, to provide me support, care. One more day to my First solo, wish you could send me off or come fetch me. Like what i always wish for. Ask me howsbmy flight and just hug me. But all this i know i only can find it during sleeping time. {DREAMING}

Not.your Usual Monday Blue

Feeling elated and nervous. Office just given me Green lights to Fly. But, i still not confident. Retook my SEP as revision, I should say well done Chloe Rachel. I done better than my first test, i didnt study it was mend to see if i "knowledgeable to fly" 4mistake out of 50. So, because of me they are busy rostering me back. First Solo, means i'm part of the crew. Its not easy stepping into the briefing room everyday not feeling pressure. Introduce yourself all over again till you LEVEL UP.Promise Him and Office-you-know-who, Carrie that i will do my best. I'm really afraid to make mistake every minor mistake will give people a chance to ZAP you. Thought i got an Ah Lian Face does not Help but add more..

Meet up Belinda for dinner at Pasta Mania. Wanted to do my nails but EXpensive $200++, i told them at orchard i only pay 150 or less. Lucky for me i walk out the shop and manage to book a slot tomorrow at my regular salon. Thank you and so Sorry to make you walk so much cause i couldnt make transaction at stand char and i gotta redraw go deposit at UOB. Just took Salary but back to Zero cause i need to pay bills.

Mich, ended her flight. Kinda of worry i called up to check on het only to add pressure. Its like no matter how well you do some people its out there to find trouble. This is Life and Work, i keep reminding myself if i can overcome Mountain than i should bring what i learn and apply. Mich, please take good care of yourself..

Gonna head to Bed, counting down 2Days. Actually, i enjoy Reading FR. Preparing Training material and Voices of my department. Thank you A,R,S for Doting me.

Lazy Sunday

Spend my entire sunday sleeping only woke up around 5pm.. Miss flying alot, the thought of going back office doing admind duties is boring. I understand myself staying in the office will bored me, i like to learn new stuff. I experience that during my time at mount faber coordinating events. Well, i only pray speedy recovery to My Face. One more week to my next Isloaz treatment, dr. Tan plese tell me some good news. After my face recover, i will divert attention to other parts of my Body. Slim down, Legs scar and gonna buy wax pot to DIY.

Any idea where i could download True Blood season Four or Vampired diary been mad about these shows..

Sequence Event

Its Friday.. Everyone prepare to gear up for Party.. Recieve call at 6pm, its my doting bossy farewell. Told mummy he resign she said i bully him end up he leaving.. Haha.. Thank you Bossy Ken. I been a bad girl during work but you entruste me big events to run, alot of opportunities given.. Every where i work, i am treated like a Princess but not the current.. So, i deicided to wear the new dress he brought me.. Love it alot, sexy with femine touch. Though had a huge arguemenit with him, i still text him in the morning. Whether to let nature take it course or brutally forcing him to be back together, i gonna reflect on things. Mount Faber is a place i learn the hardship of working, the pain of breaking up, the pain of getting sick.. when you leave that place you will be grateful at how much you brought along with you. SO, about 10plus phone started to ring and ask me head down for Zouk. It's Diana Birthday..
Zouk pretty crowded as usual. HTC was doing their promo and wanted us to take photo for them but with my peeling face i rejected.. Well, than a chain sequence of event happen when we are about to call it a Night. First PRC than the Nightmare of the night, i shall not talk about it. Learn a valuable lesson No More Dumb Mistake. Seriously, it scare the hell out of me when it happen. If i had text him and told him about it this wont happen but i didn't, Whyyyyyy What am i thinking!!! Texted him after nightmare ended, told him i needed to meet him. SO, i head down. With him around i know i am safe. Its something no words can describe. His like mine safe zone even we argue, he scold me, mad at me i know i did something wrong and it will.make me change.

Since that incident, today i felt a different person. Am i walking on the wrong path, what will it leads too. I gotta pull myself back. His afterall my ex, i gotta learn to be independent and execute the right decision. It took me so hard to be a Cabin Crew so i should treasure it do my best.

P.S i know my blog getting boring with words. Photo will be uploaded soon, after i gain more confidences to face the camera again.

Upset Night

I'm trying really hard not to cry over you, because every tear is just one more reminder that I don't know how to let you go.

Because of him, i cant sleep tonight.. and, now my gastric pain knocking on the door.

I love him. I have ever reason to Love him. I have never love someone so deep that i could stay in the waiting game for half a year. But, i dont wanna to wait any longer cause i dont wanna be alone. Everyday people just like to ask me or sure there will be soneone to ask me "do you have a Bf?" So what you expect my answer Yes?? If so than dont ask me cause its a NO.. Why? - Cause i still waiting for him. I dont want to just be envy of my sister and my friends when they have a partner to share everything with them i want to be envy and someone to care for.. He wont understand my feeling. You been hurt before so am i but i really tried hard over the months to prove that i will change for the better, i wont interfer in your work, i will do whatever it takes to be a good gf & crew..

But seems like things is not working.out.. Sad but i just gotta feel this way..

Anyway, shall check my Rostering for October than head for bed.. Meeting Belinda love for town later gotta fix my nails and do a little shopping..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA.. Its great to know and Thank you.for guiding me during flights..

Missing Him

Reported sick this morning, cause having Gastric pain.. Have to go all the way to Raffles clinic, so ask Belinda accompany me.. Love the doctor damn Gay Nice, friendly & approachable. 2days MC..

After, Dinner at bedok point.. When gastric attack i gotta stop my daily activity till it recovery means No Tom Yum, No Alcohol..

I guess my mood affected my Gastric. I can't get too upset, which i am this few weeks. About Work, I been grounded till my face recover. Blackberry, Now it at the hands of the provider for hardware installation for 2weeks i have to go without phone. They told me all data will be lost including contacts, BBm contacts, paid apps. About Him, Its been half a year after break up i still Miss him thought everytime i still meet him. I regret the breakup thats make me blame myself for it. Everytime when i thought hope is here i only end up hurt by his words. 我爱错了吗? He wanted me to be a Crew want me not to disappoint him, I did everything he ask of me but i never got what i ask of him.

我想要他好好的爱我。关心我, 给我幸福的感觉 sent me for or fetch me from flight, eat together. If you really felt between us theres No hope or Chance than let me move on. I miss Him, everytime when i got flight i wake up first thing i will look at my phone hoping to see his text hoping he will be awake to send me to the airport or after flight to switch on the phone hoping to recieve his text that his waiting for me at the airport, but i know I won't get to see both.

After So LoNG

Finally, I decide to write back my Life.. But this time a totally New life up at 35 000feet..
If not Him, I guess I won't be able to fulfill my dream, know new friends... If allowed i will write more about Daily life, since now being grounded due to my Peeling Face its boring back to office work..